All HAIL to clomid!

So I am inlove with the little pill clomid today!  I am on CD 16 and got a ++ OPK today so whohoo I am in O town!!  So early!!  I am so excited about not having to wait forever and a day to ovulate once again!  This is just great!  Hopefully I get a nice quality eggy out of it and we have a baby coming soon!  If I did I could tell John on his birthday Febuary 7th and the rest of the family maybe on v-day!  This is so neat! 

Ups and Downs

Everyday is a different turn and twist on the fertility train it seems.  One day you think oh I might be ovulating then one day you feel nothing!  I think about before we were TTC # 2 and not knowing of ANY s/s going on because I was not paying attention and now I think back and I am like how did I not notice!!  I have learned alot this round of TTC and I feel no matter what it has taught me so much that I think I can use that knowledge to help others in need.  I am really thinking of switching jobs and maybe working for a fertility clinic as a nurse there.  Would help if they were actually talking to someone who has been in their worried shoes.  All though I am more relaxed this time because I do thank the lord "at least I have one"  I feel so guilty sometimes on like the baby center boards whining or worring about it being over a year and still no results but hey at least I have my son and I need to make sure I keep that in mind.  When we were TTC Dustin I remember the despair in thinking...What if I never have any children and I want to be such a good mother?  I remember my heart aching,  it still aches for another child just one more to complete our family but sometimes I really feel I am asking to much of our wonderful god.  I mean he gave me my HUGE miracle a baby that beat all odds to survive and fought to be here.  Am I slapping him in his face and saying HEY that's not enough?  I ponder that all the time but then on the other hand I have Dustin asking me daily for a brother.  I feel bad he is alone in this world and when we are passed to heaven he will be by himself on this world except for his huge crew of cousins.  Then I get the crack head or low low income families that are on their 13th babies and they get taken away by CPS everytime.  These beautiful precious perfect 10 toe 10 finger babies born full term that are given to these people.  Why not me?  We have this beautiful home now all full of love and nice things it's such a wonderful place to grow up I just wish one more could enjoy......

Saturday...

Saturday's I have off I wish would last forever....Got tons done today cleaning and the what not's of owning a new home.  I am truely happy and at peace here I hope that brings more calmness into maybe concieving soon!  I am still nervous about the weight factor let's just face it I am way over weight I was doing good going to the gym before the move and I really need to get back into gear but I always find myself not wanting to leave the serinity of my new abode.  I love it here and always have things that I need to get done.  I guess I will just need to find a happy medium!  On the TTC front I am still awaiting the big "O"  wishing it would hurry so I know if the clomid was successful in moving up my ovulation date.  I was bragging to John the other day saying how nice I actually felt and I didn't have side effects like the time we had taken it before.  BUT I spoke tooo soon!!  Yesterday at work the hot flashes and sweat attacks came on!  LOL  I really kinda got a kick out of it.  Oh well the price of love right??  LOL 

Again already!

Yes I have neglected my blogging duties and have yet again let this blog become almost non-exsistant.  But I don't think many read it anyhow but at least it can give a person some sort of stress relief about life and as we know what most of this blog is about TTC just one more child...and on that note I am still not pregnant course we have had a interesting and stressful few months.  The last time I had written I don't even think we had found a house yet or sold ours.  Isn't it amazing how life changes so fastly a few months ago I was in despair about living in my old house and wanting a new one and wanting life changes.  And now here I sit in my wonderful peaceful home what a dream it is.  I love my new life and I count my blessings daily.  I find myself talking to god alot more then I use to not just asking for favors but also thanking him for the ones he has given me.  TTC wise was hard because we were so stressed out with the move and a 1 month delayed closing time my little egg was held hostage in the ramage of stress!  As soon as we moved in the house I FINALLY ovulated!  But it was a no go for that time and on we go to another round of the game of TTC!  We did do something different this month though we added Clomid finally,  I started taking my 100 mg last week and am currently on CD 9 awaiting my little egg to pop out!  Hopefully we catch it this time but if we don't we will eventually.  I get so nervous about the possiblities of another premature baby sometimes and it scares me but I just shrug my shoulders and say life is one big possiblitie.  I will just have faith and keep moving that I will have my full term fatty. 

Dustin is doing great moving right along we have still had a great time with his health lately he did have a bit of cedar fever which blew him behind 4 pounds but we will get them back.  He is having a hard time adjusting to school and is not wanting to complete his assignments in class and the teacher seems to think he is really cute and sort of lets him get away with it.  But I know he is testing her and we did have a conference this week and I told her not to put up with any of it because it would just keep happening.  I also went out to our local library today and got cards for me and Dustin to get him more active in reading.  We have books here but I just thought he might think its a cool thing when he gets to go to a special place you know?



We shall see as the clock keeps tickkking.......tick....tock!!

SOOOO!!!

I am sooo happy right now!!!  We finally got a offer on our house!!  And we are accepting it!!  So now we can move on with our lives and move to a new city that we sooo love.  I also in the midst of all of this have ovulated a little earlier then usual!!  LMAO!  I am 2 DPO now I should get CH's on my chart tomorrow after I temp in the morning.  So happy what if we get both of our wishes at one time!!  LMAO  Would be a blessing!!  Course now I need to find a new house and that is proving way harder then I thought!  We are set to close on November 18th!  Life is going to get busy!!!

Well what a weekend....

Had a great birthday weekend just a really relaxing one.  TTC wise still no positive OPK's wishing in some ways it would just hurry so we could get on with the clomid next cycle I am interested to see what my O date would be on the clomid.  When I was TTC with Dustin I was not charting only BD every other day the whole month pretty much.  So that month that we conceived Dustin we were taking a break we only had BD twice.  Once Sept 18th and the other was towards the end of the month like the 27th or around that date.  I got my BFP + on October 7th and the Beta was 79 two days later.  I just really would be happier with a earlier O date would give us so many more chances to get our baby.  I am going to start on the working out stuff aswell while I am waiting for this cycle to pass really need to drop the weight fast.  I hope we sell the house somewhere inbetween as well!!  I need to make some APPTs too I need to see the hematologist and the cardiologist to get a check up.  Will try to do that tomorrow!  I need to start taking pictures for the blog too!  Will work on that!

Sooo I have been so bad!!

Been so bad about not doing this blog but I have decided to update it more often because it would be a great therapy tool. I am still pondering on doing a family blog aswell seeing as how I do not want everyone knowing our TTC buisness but would like to update some people on how we are doing in family life...Will have to think of that later on to see about opening a second blog maybe just about family and junk.....

Anywho!!

As for our TTC journey for baby # 2! Still have been trying with just the aid of metformin my cycles are still incrediably long and that is putting quite a length of time on the TTC process. I had a great last cycle still long of course but my test results from last cycle were very well!

TEST RESULTS:

5-7 DPO of last cycle
Prolactin 4.2
Progestrone 9.1

My Cycle day 3 blood work for starting this current cycle was
Testosterone 24
% of free testerone 1.73
Testersterone free 4.2
FSH 3.3
LH 3.1
Progesterone 0.6
TSH 3rd generation 1.88
Estradoil 60
CBC was great except my platelet count was up to 441 which I don't know about that I need to go back to my hematologist seeing as I have thrombophilia and I am on asprin so I don't think they should be that high.

So my results in a nut shell. If you view my charts you can see my follicular phase is WAY to long. So I really need clomid to help even the odds again I got a script for 100 mg. I got pregnant with Dustin very fast on clomid 4 cycles and it helped my period really be between 28-30 days long was great! We were wanting to not do clomid this time because John really wants everything laid back and natural blah blah but any woman knows that, that crap is for the birds cause we have babies on the brain!! LMAO So I have also been bad about the weight issue and fell off the wagon at the gym but this month I am sooo stepping it up! We also haven't sold the house yet and that is adding to my growing axniety of things I WISH it would just sell I am soooo tired of the worry over it but I must trust in my wonderful lord that it will sell at the exact time it is suppose to I just wish he could hurry it a little. As I think I am going to go crazy daily. My doctor also gave me some tips on TTC told me not to drink any tap water or non-organic milk because they put to many hormones in each and I can see the point because they do put large amounts of growth hormone and such in them. Sooo I will be looking for more organic foods instead! Tried the milk already don't taste much difference its a little thicker in a way but taste great. Lasts a long time in the fridge too!

Dustin is getting big and huge and weighs 42 pounds and is 43 inches tall he is soooo caught up and doing well. He has been a bit of a smart ass like his father in school though....grrrr......So we are working on that. John is still doing okay working hard as always he is such a good provider and the best man in the world. Feeling lucky today to have these two hearts in my life.....