10 dpo....

Still waiting on those two lines to show....LOL  I am cramping alot which is kind of scaring me in into thinking I might have some extra cysts hanging around on my ovaries.  I really hope not.   I did test today and it was a BFN but hopefully Monday will bring brighter lines!  I am not testing again until monday at aleast.  We shall see what the early week brings.  Monday is also my dads birthday and they are wanting to get together later that week so would be a neat time to maybe tell everyone.  John's birthday is that Sunday which I think I would start my period on that day if not pregnant LMAO  Poor guy!

8 dpo and waiting.....

Hopefully I will get a little punkin this month!!  The 2 week wait is always the worst!  I swear that is when women go the craziest you can't wait to get here but when you are here you can't wait to move on again!  LMAO  Crazy cycle of TTC!!  I am still hoping I get a nice fat BFP for John's birthday.  I keep thinking of the ways I might tell him and then the family.  My dad and John both want to do something with the whole family next weekend so that would be a great time to tell everyone that we would be expecting #2 soon.  Who knows maybe the baby might be born on my birthday!  That would be a great gift! 

So s/s of me?
Well at 8 DPO I have sore breasts always have those though,  I am having alot of gas and cramps and bowel issues.  I feel very bloated and constipated TMI I KNOW!  I seem to have more CM this time around but allergies have been in the air so who knows.  My temps have been great chart has never looked better!  Can't wait to see a green plus sign on it though!!

5 DPO lazy Sunday

Today was so pretty I just didn't want it to end.  I wanted to be caught up in the moment of my small family all day and not think about work on Monday!  BLAH!  I am 5 DPO today and starting to get really eager with the wondering game I really hate this part of the 2 week wonder.  Hopefully this will be the last one for me!  I know someday I will miss this looking back though.  I missed TTC for Dustin after I had him the excitement and the joy of that BFP when it came in two lines!  Hopefully I will look back and smile on those moments yet again for hopefully a little girl !!  LMAO  I sooo want to buy pink and lavender crap!  LOL  So here's to another few days of wondering and waiting and chewing all my nails off!!

Cross Hairs on FF rock!

My wonderful chart!  I have never had a chart so neat!  It's awesome almost like I am a normal person ovulating on time!  Whohoo go me!  Hope I get some good results this cycle!  We shall see how long I can hold out testing!  John's birthday is on Febuary 7th <3

Another one <3

I just love seeing the ++ OPKS so early in the cycle!  It's so exciting to me and I am on cloud nine today!  Happily cleaning and moving around the house knowing my little egg is there hopefully having a party!  So exciting I really hope maybe this month with ovulation taking place so much earlier then I normally do the egg quality is great and results in a BFP for us right in time for daddy's birthday!  Would be great =0)  I have taken so many OPK's the past 12-14 hours and all dark positives darker then the control line I took a picture of one just for fun I decided I would try to start taking more pictures to put on here to dress the blog up a little more =0)

Test line on the right =0)

All HAIL to clomid!

So I am inlove with the little pill clomid today!  I am on CD 16 and got a ++ OPK today so whohoo I am in O town!!  So early!!  I am so excited about not having to wait forever and a day to ovulate once again!  This is just great!  Hopefully I get a nice quality eggy out of it and we have a baby coming soon!  If I did I could tell John on his birthday Febuary 7th and the rest of the family maybe on v-day!  This is so neat! 

Ups and Downs

Everyday is a different turn and twist on the fertility train it seems.  One day you think oh I might be ovulating then one day you feel nothing!  I think about before we were TTC # 2 and not knowing of ANY s/s going on because I was not paying attention and now I think back and I am like how did I not notice!!  I have learned alot this round of TTC and I feel no matter what it has taught me so much that I think I can use that knowledge to help others in need.  I am really thinking of switching jobs and maybe working for a fertility clinic as a nurse there.  Would help if they were actually talking to someone who has been in their worried shoes.  All though I am more relaxed this time because I do thank the lord "at least I have one"  I feel so guilty sometimes on like the baby center boards whining or worring about it being over a year and still no results but hey at least I have my son and I need to make sure I keep that in mind.  When we were TTC Dustin I remember the despair in thinking...What if I never have any children and I want to be such a good mother?  I remember my heart aching,  it still aches for another child just one more to complete our family but sometimes I really feel I am asking to much of our wonderful god.  I mean he gave me my HUGE miracle a baby that beat all odds to survive and fought to be here.  Am I slapping him in his face and saying HEY that's not enough?  I ponder that all the time but then on the other hand I have Dustin asking me daily for a brother.  I feel bad he is alone in this world and when we are passed to heaven he will be by himself on this world except for his huge crew of cousins.  Then I get the crack head or low low income families that are on their 13th babies and they get taken away by CPS everytime.  These beautiful precious perfect 10 toe 10 finger babies born full term that are given to these people.  Why not me?  We have this beautiful home now all full of love and nice things it's such a wonderful place to grow up I just wish one more could enjoy......

Saturday...

Saturday's I have off I wish would last forever....Got tons done today cleaning and the what not's of owning a new home.  I am truely happy and at peace here I hope that brings more calmness into maybe concieving soon!  I am still nervous about the weight factor let's just face it I am way over weight I was doing good going to the gym before the move and I really need to get back into gear but I always find myself not wanting to leave the serinity of my new abode.  I love it here and always have things that I need to get done.  I guess I will just need to find a happy medium!  On the TTC front I am still awaiting the big "O"  wishing it would hurry so I know if the clomid was successful in moving up my ovulation date.  I was bragging to John the other day saying how nice I actually felt and I didn't have side effects like the time we had taken it before.  BUT I spoke tooo soon!!  Yesterday at work the hot flashes and sweat attacks came on!  LOL  I really kinda got a kick out of it.  Oh well the price of love right??  LOL 

Again already!

Yes I have neglected my blogging duties and have yet again let this blog become almost non-exsistant.  But I don't think many read it anyhow but at least it can give a person some sort of stress relief about life and as we know what most of this blog is about TTC just one more child...and on that note I am still not pregnant course we have had a interesting and stressful few months.  The last time I had written I don't even think we had found a house yet or sold ours.  Isn't it amazing how life changes so fastly a few months ago I was in despair about living in my old house and wanting a new one and wanting life changes.  And now here I sit in my wonderful peaceful home what a dream it is.  I love my new life and I count my blessings daily.  I find myself talking to god alot more then I use to not just asking for favors but also thanking him for the ones he has given me.  TTC wise was hard because we were so stressed out with the move and a 1 month delayed closing time my little egg was held hostage in the ramage of stress!  As soon as we moved in the house I FINALLY ovulated!  But it was a no go for that time and on we go to another round of the game of TTC!  We did do something different this month though we added Clomid finally,  I started taking my 100 mg last week and am currently on CD 9 awaiting my little egg to pop out!  Hopefully we catch it this time but if we don't we will eventually.  I get so nervous about the possiblities of another premature baby sometimes and it scares me but I just shrug my shoulders and say life is one big possiblitie.  I will just have faith and keep moving that I will have my full term fatty. 

Dustin is doing great moving right along we have still had a great time with his health lately he did have a bit of cedar fever which blew him behind 4 pounds but we will get them back.  He is having a hard time adjusting to school and is not wanting to complete his assignments in class and the teacher seems to think he is really cute and sort of lets him get away with it.  But I know he is testing her and we did have a conference this week and I told her not to put up with any of it because it would just keep happening.  I also went out to our local library today and got cards for me and Dustin to get him more active in reading.  We have books here but I just thought he might think its a cool thing when he gets to go to a special place you know?



We shall see as the clock keeps tickkking.......tick....tock!!