8 DPO

God I swear the 2WW is the longest. LOL Crazy really. So today I broke down and tested I feel so dispointed in myself for not being strong enough to pee on something I swear no one is safe in my house the dog might be next! LMAO Of course it was negative which I knew it would be no matter what it is really to early because my LP I am guessing is around 14 days. So that would be 6 days before my next expected period. So I will test at 10DPO next I swear I will be strong tomorrow and keep my bodily functions to myself! I took Chloe to the doctor today (my neice) was horriable long story and a big mess and she lost her insurance and she is a sick little girl. Ughh! Dustin's 6th Birthday is coming up I am being really relaxed a little to much prolly I really dunno how many people are going to be there I kept it really small and simple. Which reminds me I need to start on the little party bags for the kiddos. Dustin has a play on Thursday so I will prolly test Thursday night? I dunno I will prolly get to eager though and test in the AM time to tell you the truth! GL to me trying not to pee on objects!

7DPO

Sooo 7DPO today and starting to go a little crazy! LOL I felt so good about not getting crazy peeing sticks this month but I CAVED!! LMAO I know I am bad but it was a BFN but it's really early I know to early. Today I was on call but I went in for a few hours tomorrow I will be oncall again and go in and work office for a few hours again as well. Going with Chloe to some appts though. Sooo s/s for 7dpo!

Here they are
-bloated I feel heavy and round
-tender nipples
-light headaches
-Craving icecream the past few days but I get cravings of different things every now and then.
-thats IT! Nothing else LOL

I am going to go do Dustin's homework with him now take care!!

6DPO

Well I am 6DPO today and just playing the whole waiting game! LOL We had a great day! We cleaned up the house this morning and ate breakfast together. Then we all got bathed and ready and went to look at more houses. Went to the store today also and got my FRER tests LOL Hopefully I won't take them all in one day! LOL I am trying to hold off though! Parts of me are starting to get pretty nervous like if I am pg am I ready and so forth what if this is all a whole mess of hurt and badness. What if the baby doesn't make it. Things like making sure I put away money for a funeral are going thru my mind driving me insane I wish I was a regular person that could just be happy when I got a + sign on a test and celebrate. I am scared deathly. I just want one more baby I will stop after that. I just want one more. I want a baby in the room. I want people to be happy visiting me not crying but happy and laughing and making jokes about the babies looks and making fun of John because he is going to be broke. I have thought of these moments thru and thru hoping they come to be memories in a year or so. What do I do if I lose the baby John wouldn't let me try again I don't think he would. I am scared about it. All these emotions maybe I am pregnant! LMAO! WELL ON THE OTHER HAND!!

6DPO S/S are..
-Sore NIPPLES not breast but nipples only
-CM has dried up completely
THAT IS IT! LOL Nothing else

I did do something fun today I did the chinese birthchart on parents.com I am 27 and the baby would be concieved in Febuary. I checked with Dustin's stats and it was right about him! Whohoo!
http://www.parents.com/getting-pregnant/how-to/boy-girl/boy-or-girl-ancient-chinese-birth-chart-ages-25-to-31-february/
So according to this I would be having a GIRL!

I would be happy John and Dustin would kill me!

Tired

Tired as ever! Well today was okay I was off work we went and looked at houses and had a great breakfast at Grumpys. I kept having mood swings though pretty bad I felt bad but I just couldn't help it but I think I was just tired. I went shopping for some gifts for Dustin as well and bought him a outfit to wear that I hope he likes on his birthday. I forgot to show it to him though when we got home and he is out like a light now. Ever since last night he has had a issue with nose bleeds like bad ones so I will keep a eye on that. As far as the fertility me! Temps are still good stayed the same I am still having fertile cm which is making me nervous I seem to have more now then when I was supposively ovulating? Nervous about that but I am just believing in the FF gods LMAO.
SOO

5 DPO
-mood swings
-sore boobs
-still some constipation
-Some Heartburn


We shall seeeeeeeeee!

I ovulated!! WHOOHOOO!!

I am sooo excited I finally got my cross hairs on fertility friend so I ovulated this month!! I am now 3 DPO! You would have thought this morning I got a BFP because I was so excited when I saw the cross hairs!! WHOHOO! A little on cloud 9 because I did it on my own well with metformin for PCOS but I didn't take clomid so I feel like a beat up some little part of the infertiltiy witch! LOL I am going to stay home today and take it easy I need to really clean alot and get our income tax things together so that we can go do our taxes. We really want to pay off some monthly bills so that we dont have to worry about them for the rest of the year. So I am going to list my daily symptoms incase I do get a BFP I can look back

Symptoms
-pulling and pinching in both ovaries with I lift my arms up I feel pulling and I have to put them back down
-I feel heavy down below like a urinary infection.
-sore breast
-TMI constipation
-backache
-headache
-fatiuge today but I had a restless nights sleep.

Check out my chart!!

OPKS CRAZY!!

Let me introduce you to my evil OPK's!! LOL Biggin on the top is from cd24 I would call it + in person its dark the glare on the top of it kinda makes it lighter. The middle one is CD25 I would call it -, and the 3rd one is cd 26 todays and its a very dark + one even darker then that this picture was taken about 3 minutes after I peed on it! So looks like I O'd about a day or two earlier then last month. Which is good I am just waiting for it to be confirmed with temps. My temp this morning was messed up because little Dustin wetted the bed last night at 4 am and I temp at 5 am so it wasn't a solid sleep! I was so mad because I was soo awaiting my temp! Oh well there is tomorrow! Little man comes first always he was so upset that he tee tee the bed. But he will survive! I took some funny pics of him yesterday when we were taking a nap thought I would share one to whom ever reads this LOL

Started something....

I will write more later but I started a new little message board on baby center hope it works out! Here is the link!

http://community.babycenter.com/groups/a5854695/ttc_and_pregnant_friends