Today's post

Sorry I know I haven't been a "good" blogger lately. So much stress and I have been working all week. I just got my check too and they forgot to put my vacation time in for the days I was off when I was sick. As far as the TTC thing as well I am fustrated John is going out of town this weekend and we did not BD since Tuesday so I am scared I will O this weekend and he will be gone and well you can put two and two together. I am hoping I don't O now until Monday or Tuesday. Ughh if not it's on to next month and that is okay I am at peace with it I know everything happens for a reason and when I do get preggie it will be because it's the right time for me and the baby and I just have to trust in god that for some reason he wants me to wait or there is a better time. I keep losing faith but I need to refocuse on it. Dustin is doing really well eating up a storm that boy has definately gotten over all his ickies and on his way to a nice weight recovery and even then some! My mom said she might come down this weekend but I know she won't she never does when she says she will. So much stress to much to even blog about but I know I will get thru it like always!! Hope everyone has a great day!!

sooo...

We are getting over all the ickies in our home! Thank goodness!!! We went to the rodeo this weekend YAY it was fun and Dustin had a blast I will post some pictures later! Today we cruised around trying to find neat new houses to think about moving too if we ever sell this house! I really thought our house would sell soooo fast everyone is moving out this way and we are in a lower price range. Oh well all we can do is wait and trust in god that everything happens at that time for a reason. TTC wise! I think I am about to O I had EWCM this morning and a temp dip and I think it will climb higher tomorrow! We did BD today so I am hoping and praying that was enough because we haven't BD before that since Tuesday! Grrrr.....My OPK's though have still been - so I dunno yet. I just took one a little while ago and I would call it - by my standards but they are darker then usual. I am excited about tomorrow's temp. I will need to make John do his hubby duties a little more! If I am Oing right now then its earlier then it was last month because last month I o'd so darn LATE! I hope it is the case now! I did something I dunno if I want to tell John about!! I paid for a reading!! I paid 8 dollars for a fertility reading that alot of girls from one of my boards were getting done! Here is what she said!

Thanks so much for letting me read for you! I really enjoyed it and I wish you get all you desire! Please let me know you got this and if you need any clarifiation. Also if you could please pass my information around that would be great My new site to order a reading is at http://rubysreadings.angelfire.com or you can also order a reading at http://www.myspace.com/babiesaregems

your very welcome sweetie you are very kind too. been there myself.

i see a conceive or find out with a bfp between april and aug of 2009 and a girl.
i see a conceive or find out with a bfp between july and sept of 2012 and a boy.
now the guide want me to give you this messae they know yoru on wants a siblingbut they are also telling me hes very well prepared to wait beliee it or not. when i pick up his energies he hoenstly seems to want this sibling more for you guys than for hismelf. he wants to see you happy and your dreams come to frutation. so please not to feel to much pressure with with this ispossible. all the best! ruby

well..

Well Dustin is sick he has type B flu which is more then likely what I had aswell. Hopefully it was in time we got him started on tamiflu. I am up right now waiting for some bad storms to pass and then I am going to check on his fever again before I go to bed. I have been setting my alarm clock at night to wake up every 3-4 hours to do a fever check on him all times that I have woken up he has needed meds. Poor guy I really hope the tamiflu and antibiotics work on him. John came home today and brought us dinner and a movie so we had a nice family night in. I enjoyed it and we enjoyed spending time together. I am nervous about this upcoming week I am suppose to go back to work on Thursday but dustin will more then likely still be sick unless he has no fevers tomorrow which I think he will. He was still a trooper today he is so strong in many ways. My temping is still going okay still no major hike to show ovulation. We shall stay tuned. Well off to check on him!

sick and tired of being sick and tired

I feel so behind and still sick and my anxiety has been up tons the psat few days. It hasn't been this bad since before I started nursing school. I am thinking it's just stress piling up and it will blow over once some of it disapates. I am hoping anyways. I am nervous about the sale of the house. About me being sick and now my precious 5 year old is running a fever and I figure if that cold or whatever it was knocked me on my ass so bad what is it going to do to him. Now my nerves are up more. I called his pedi today to see if they would call in some antibiotics and I would take him in on day 2 or 3 because today his only s/s is runny nose and fever and I already know I was - for strep and - for flu. But they said no they wanted to see him which I am bummed because I really wanted to just stay home be with him and get caught up on some things around the house and MAYBE take a nap. BLAH not happening. I am still nervous about driving but I am not that dizzy anymore so I think it will be okay. The appt is at 430 this afternoon so at least we will have time to be in our Pjs for a while longer and he can lay down for a 1230 nap. I started temping again today I think the temps are back to normal it was 97.2 which is about where I was prior to illness and I had not taken anything medwise for about 8 hours. I am showing some s/s of ovulation. Now I am getting nervous about the thought of having another health wise. I am losing weight down to 244 today. But I need to kick it in high gear. I figure I will walk in the park my days off cause I do like to walk alot. After I take Dustin to school on my days off stop at the park and walk for a hour or so. John's mom bought me a IPOD shuffle for Christmas so I will load it up and try that out. Also I said hmm make it fun me and Dustin will have dance offs! LOL Turn on music for 30 minutes and just dance like crazy! Never thought of it before lol. And my normal work outs and watch what I eat. We will see what happens I hope my angels are watching over us! One good thing John got my old harddrive out of my OLD laptop and SAVED all my old pictures!! whoohoo go hubba!

sick again

I am so mad I am sick again!! I was sick cold/flu symtoms each time on december 29,jan 15th and now feb 5th. I am so tired of being sick!! I tested - for flu and - for strep. I was at work when it really started to hit me and it did fast. My highest temp was yesterday 104.7 don't even want to talk about how that felt. I do feel alot better today. But now this is really going to mess my temping up. ughhh! So fustrated!! Last night we had box seats to Gary Allen we were going to take Dustin to his first rodeo performence but instead john had to go alone. John's birthday is today and he is eating alone with his parents for his birthday lunch. I feel so bad about it. I think dustin is getting sick too which makes me even more mad! But I am hoping his throat is just sore because his left scab fell off. Poor guy I hope and PRAY he doesn't get it!!

Ughh

Well today I was just really irritated with everything and needed a break. I spent the day mostly at home in bed teetering around on the computer and watching tv. I just wanted a day to myself just me. I napped and showered and just relaxed. I have come up with some ideas for weight loss but will think about it some more. After my lil day to myself at 3pm I got ready and went to the bank and then to pick up some more scripts at the pharamacy then to pick Dustin up from school which I fall inlove with him all over just looking at him. We went to go meet daddy for dinner in town and bought Dustin some new shoes that he has been begging for some police sketchers. LOL Kids are so funny they were 40 bucks though! Ughh if he wasn't sooo darn cute! LMAO I have no problem spending 40 bucks on shoes but when you grow out of them every three or four months thats alot of money. We went to target and messed around there as well. I bought my ovulation tests for this month the other day and still have 4 digi pg tests from last month so I am fully stocked. I took some more pictures yesterday and will post them maybe tomorrow. I work tuesday thru thursday and then a half day friday. Then Friday we are taking dustin to the rodeo to see Gary Allen! I am excited to show him everything! Well night all see you soon!

Sunday

Today was nerve racking at first.......family was over and really stressed me out. My brother and his boys came over to stay the night no big deal but his 6 year old starts waking up thru out the night with bad diarhia! Does it all thru the morning and when my brother calls his ex to tell her she says yeah he has had it for a few days! I am so pissed I am almost crying because if Dustin gets it we are already down 3 pounds now and we will be even worse. We are just now starting to gain our weight back!!! Ughh so I am stressed about that but I have really lysoled everything in his room and changed his bedding and such I hope we luck out with this one. I am still lightly on my period temps are good and I am excited about this month of TTC I feel really good about it. I really need to focus on weight loss as well. I wish I would just DO IT!! I think I am not going into work extra tomorrow its my day off but on my days off alot of times I will go in and work office but I think I will work on ME tomorrow and my plan on getting this weight off and doing something about it quickly I may go tour some of the gyms and see if they have a month to month thing seeing as I do not want to sign a contract. I dunno yet but I will think about it tomorrow and carry it out and then write about it on here. I joined some cycle buddy groups that I am excited about what if I am one of the ones that says YAY got my BFP! I also am already thinking of the ones that won't and that makes me sad I hope everyone just gets it!!! LOL That would be really neat. Well I am off to bed I have a big day tomorrow for me I will prolly come on and journal and think it out tomorrow!